Having a child with special needs, opens your world to an whole new perspective on life. A world that is challenging, demanding, empowering, loving and hopeful. There are definitely many ups and many downs, each one bringing with it a flood of various emotions. With Cerebral Palsy every day is a new day, each day a new challenge, you never know what’s waiting around the next corner.
That’s what brings us here today at the Janeway Children’s Hospital. Lauren was admitted yesterday and her surgery is scheduled for 11 O’clock AM. Lauren will be having both a femoral and acetabulum osteotomy on her left hip.
Lauren was just taken into the OR and won’t be back until at least 4 O’clock, that makes it over a four hour surgery. You have no idea how we are feeling at this very moment, there are no words to describe it. Now we have to wait, there is nothing in our control. Her life is now in the doctor’s hands and we have to surrender her care to them. But I have to believe that there is a greater power at work here and He will take good care of her and bring her back to us.
It was a very long day, longer then expected really. She got back to Special Care around 6:30pm. Not all that responsive, not wanting to wake up, very weak. But that is all to be expected.
All day Thursday she slept most of the day. Her hemoglobin was down but they wanted to wait and see if she could build it up herself. The following morning it went down again so they had no choice but to give her a blood transfusion. Hoping this will help with getting some strength back and make her feel a little better. The neurologist is coming in soon. Her speech is very different, slurred sort of, could be meds but they want to make sure. So far now that’s the update; now we just wait again.
Neurologist confirmed that it’s her seizure medication plus all the pain medication, that’s making her over medicated and thus the slurred speech. So now she as to stay at the hospital until that’s clarified. We thought we were going to get out today (Friday) but that’s not going to happen. Hopefully tomorrow things will get better.
Well, tomorrow is here (Sat. May 19) and things are looking a little better. Lauren had pain through the night and still has slurred speech this morning. They done blood work again to see what her hemoglobin levels are; hopefully they are increasing. She’s still lying on her back and hasn’t been out of bed or sat up yet. She could really break your heart if you let it.
Logan as been a real trooper through all of this, he’s spent most of his days at the hospital with us. He is Sissy’s biggest fan and was very upset when she came up from the OR. He couldn’t understand why Sissy wasn’t talking to him, that was a first.
It’s Lauren’s fourth day in the hospital and she’s doing a lot better. She sat in the chair and went for a ride in her wheelchair. She still has pain and spasms but it’s mostly controlled by medication. Taking her home is going to be the hardest, getting accustomed to her being in a spica cast is certainly going to be a challenge.
Lauren is getting back to her fiesty self, thank God. She’s ready to exit this place and get home. It’s Monday (she came in on Tuesday) and it looks like we are going home. Scary and excited at the same time. She requires so much care and lifting; we know it’s going to be rough but we will do it.
Once she’s home, let the healing process begin. Because once she’s recovered from this surgery (around 3 weeks) it’s back in for more surgery on her right hip. Oh my, I don’t know how we are going to put her through this again; this will be her third hip surgery. It sounds so cruel and it is but it as to be done. It’s all part of a plan to help release some of Lauren’s spasticity so she can be a little more comfortable and help with some mobility. All of this seems so unfair, so cruel, so senseless and there’s not a thing we can do about it; helpless.
Once both hips are back in socket and she is fully recovered from both hip surgeries; it’s then we are off to the Children’s Shriner’s Hospital in Montreal. It’s there she will have a baclofen pump trial; to see if the baclofen will help to release some of her spasticity. Baclofen is a medication used to treat spasticity. If the trial works then she will have a surgery where a puck-like device will be inserted under the skin of her belly, called a baclofen pump and a tube going directly to the spine with a constant supply of baclofen when needed. Then the pump will need to be refilled every six weeks and the pump itself replaced every seven months. Which will have to be done surgically each time. Hopefully the baclofen pump will work for her. If not we are running out of options.
The only thing left would be the rhizotomy surgery on her spine. Which she is not a candidate for right now. This surgery is very invasive; they go into the spine and cut certain of the nerves that controls the spasticity to certain muscles and permanently release some of her spasticity. This is the surgery that we feel as her parents, would benefit her the most. It would give her some form of mobility and comfort; long term. Unfortunately, we are not the ones making that decision.
All of this seems so overwhelming as parents; and it really is. Everyday is long, tiring and unpredictable but we do what we have to do. Life is so different now, we have to trust in an higher power for strength because we could never do this in our own strength. I wish I could take Lauren’s CP away, she is so bright, funny, strong, courageous, beautiful and deserves to walk. Sometimes life is just not fair!
