Dear Dad,
I was just sitting here with Lauren asleep in my arms, pondering about the Christmas Season and you popped into my mind. I can’t believe so many years have passed already since you passed away, things sure haven’t been the same since you left and so much have happened and changed.
I never knew what lonely was before, until you left us. Now there’s a piece of my heart that will always be missing, a piece that only you could fill. I remember how much you loved Christmas and the ones you spent with us into St.John’s, they were such good times. Even when you would get on my nerves by clicking your teeth or picking your nose. lol
I wanted to write to let you know some of the things that have happened since you left. Mom has never been the same since you left, you must have taken part of her spirit, her heart with you when you left. We do what we can but that is so limited. She’s gone up to Claris and Monique’s for the winter; and to them we are thankful for doing that, at least now she’s not alone. Mom is in such constant pain and discomfort, so if you could put a word in for her; that the pain would stop, that would be great.
The last five years I have been really sick and oh so many times I wish I could just talk to you, you always made me feel better. You were always the first person I’d call when I wasn’t well and you would always come and touch my head ( I knew you were whispering a prayer for me). You always understood and knew the right words to say. So I’m calling you today to come and make things better. Lisa and I aren’t doing so well, you always called her my angel and loved her like a daughter and her you.
The past five years have really been rough, my sickness has taken it’s toll on both of us. We had to move out of St.John’s and you know how much I loved it there (it was MY home). We had no choice but to move to Bay Roberts, did you ever see that in my future; I sure didn’t, not in a million years. It’s growing on me but hasn’t been easy.
I really have some good news, I know you would be so happy and proud for us. We now have two children; bet you never thought I would be the one to carry on the Tucker name. Well Logan is now six and the most amazing little boy, you would just love him and I’m sure he would love to have a Poppy. But I tell him about you all the time and show him your picture. And Lauren is our little angel from Heaven, she is absolutely beautiful. She really needs your prayers, you see Dad, she can’t walk. I know she would just break your heart but please ask God if we could have a Christmas miracle, we don’t want anything else. My heart will never mend again, she would break the hardest of hearts. I know you would say, “isn’t she perdy (pretty) bye”. I will never give up believing for a miracle. But Dad, they are the happiest children you ever saw, in spite of it all.
Wish you could be here for this Christmas, that would be my Christmas wish. We miss you so much; you were the glue that kept us all together. You are missed more than words can say. Thank you for being the best father any son could ever ask for. You left me with the greatest legacy possible. Your love for your family and your faith in God, taught me the greatest meaning in life.
Have the best Christmas ever, miss you and love you forever. Til we meet again (and we will),
Harris
