Anger isn’t an emotion that I like to feel. But I’m human and today I’m angry. I’m not angry at God, He is the one and only person that I know I can pour my heart out to and He understands. So no, I’m not angry at God; He’s my Rock, my burden bearer, my healer, my friend.
So often we have the tendency to blame God for anything that goes wrong or is wrong in the world. I’m guilty of doing that myself but this morning I realized that He is not to blame for what’s going wrong but is to be praised for what is going right and know that He is with us when things aren’t going so well. And sometimes He even allows these things to happen to make us stronger. 2 Corinthians 12:9-10 “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness”….”For when I am weak, then I am strong.”
Lots of times we feel guilty when we become angry because “Christians” shouldn’t feel that way. Well we do feel that way sometimes and that’s okay. Jesus became angry on several occasions; In Matthew 21:12-13, He became angry at those who were exchanging money at the Temple. In Mark 3:5 “He looked around at them with anger”. Jesus was angry at times, yet did not sin, Hebrews 4:15. And likewise, believers in Christ are taught, “Be angry and do not sin” Ephesians 4:26. While anger is often viewed as a completely negative emotion, there are times a person can be angry for appropriate reasons. In Jesus case, His anger was the result of ungodly attitudes and actions by those around Him.
So today I feel my anger is totally justified for good. I guess you could say I’m angry at “the System”, medical that is. You see, Lauren was scheduled for hip surgery on March 12th; much to our dismay it was cancelled, no explanation, no rescheduled appointment, nothing. Now here is a four years old little girl going around with “two” dislocated hips, in pain; totally inhumane in my opinion. After several calm and polite phone calls to inquire about a rescheduled surgery date, we were given nothing. So on April 30th (now a month and an half as gone by) I decided I’ve had enough and we have to get a date to get this surgery done.
I introduced myself to the secretary on the phone, and stated my case and said if I hadn’t heard back from her doctor by the evening, I would take my story to the NTV News. Now up to this point she could not tell me when or if Lauren was going to get this surgery done. Yet here was Lauren still going around with two dislocated hips, had to take her out of swimming because it hurt too much, couldn’t do physio therapy anymore, couldn’t sit crisscross and in pain.
Maybe ten minutes later my phone rang, her doctor was on the other end with an appointment for May 16th. Now if I didn’t get angry, would we have gotten that appointment? I think not! Ten minutes before and the appointment secretary didn’t have one. i’m sure they won’t be rolling out the red carpet for me at the Janeway, anytime soon. But I’m not trying to win any popularity contest with them, I’m trying to get the best healthcare for our child who deserves nothing less but the best. And right now I feel she’s not getting that and I will not give up without a fight. Although this may exhaust me of every ounce of strength that I have, I will not give up! You Go Lauren!
So Lauren, when the Janeway may have given up; Mommy and Daddy haven’t and will never. And remember the Great Physician has the last word! Matthew 19:14 “But Jesus said, suffer little children, and forbid them not, to come unto me: for of such is the kingdom of Heaven.”
